Firstly I want to introduce you to this girl, I love her & I know she did what she needed but I also don’t ever want to be her again.

This above Jess was still incredibly loved, had an amazing husband, incredible children, fulfilled with her friends, family, church family and basketball family. In fact, this photo was taken the morning after the celebration of our wonderful friends wedding. She really loved her life & rightfully so.

Fast forward to 2023 Jess, I still have all of those things & am more blessed than I sometimes think I deserve. The difference is that I decided this year I am going to commit to MYSELF, I want to become the best version of myself, I want to be healthier, I want to be stronger and if you’ve read any of my previous posts, I want to be here for a long time. I want my outside beauty to match my inside beauty. I also hope in the redevelopment of myself that I can help inspire some people along the way & showcase just what self awareness, self love and hard work can achieve.

So today I’m here to be honest and vulnerable. (And expose my weight 🤣)

On 7th March, 113 days ago I started with weight-loss on my mind, my first “big” milestone was to get under 110kg, today I achieved that, I am 109.6kg making this journeys total to 12.1kg gone. I am also 19.2kg from my biggest. You bet this journey isn’t just about a scale weight but 99.9 I am coming for you look out 💪🥳

I have had good days and bad days but by being consistent and showing up for myself, when I have a day I need more kindness, I give that to myself. But I have also shared with my accountability friend this past week that I’ve also had to learn & discern when I’m actually being kind to myself vs making a choice that might feel kind in the moment but make me feel rubbish tomorrow. I often do this with food, so being self aware of that behaviour has meant I can actively change it & be in control.

The affirmations I centre my days around are:

– I am in total control of my situation

– I am deserving of investing in the person I want to be

– I will put myself first so I am able to help those around me even more

– I am extremely happy and grateful that I am fit and healthy and am the role model to my children that I always dreamed of being

– I am healthy

– I am someone who loves water.

– I am an inspiration to my children.

– I am in control of my body.

So if you have made it this far, thanks for reading, thanks for your support on this journey & I can’t wait to show you what comes next ❤️

Love always, MrsJRad