In fact, most of the time it has been hard, really really hard.

But that’s kind of the point, growth doesn’t come from a place of comfort. It’s why in May when Lily said to me she wanted to run, I said yes.

Old me would have been an unequivocal no because I couldn’t think of anything worse than doing something so hard.

So every day I am thankful for the fact I said yes. Not for any other reason than I have been able to show up for myself and prove to myself “I can do hard things”… I actually repeat that to myself during my runs when it’s feeling hard.

Today was a tough one, I had missed my Saturday run because of several things that came up & instead of beating myself up, I just knew today I was not missing my run and I even thought to myself that it could mean my run is better today… but boy was I wrong 🤣

My day started at 5am rudely awaken by reflux, a consequence for poor food choices yesterday, I managed to get back to sleep before heading to the JJ’s member breakfast. Lots of fun was had & caught up with some favs, so was in a good mood going into the rest of the day even though I was feeling a bit tired…

We did family ice baths and sauna, I put the roast in the oven and off I went, with high expectations this was going to be one of my best efforts yet…

I made it 1km before I had to take a 30 second walk break, my right shin and left calf were hating me and I was incredibly sore and feeling sorry for myself.

I was super frustrated by this because I “shouldn’t” need to stop… but the words of a wise friend popped into my head, she said to me “you realise it does still count even if you have to take walk breaks” and I realised my ego needed to just settle down.

So that shift in my mindset was exactly what I needed to get through the rest of my run, I switched from podcast to music so I could focus on the music to help me through, funnily enough, after my little self pep talk, I didn’t need to take another walk break 🤣

Anyways, I just wanted to share that it’s not always going to be easy, but I believe to the depths of my soul that it’s definitely worth it. So hard things so you can show up for yourself, because if you can’t show up for yourself, how can you show up for anyone else 🤷‍♀️

Sweet dreams,

Love, MrsJRad