So I’ve been dealing on and off for a total of around 7 years with some nerve/back pain, always on and off until maybe the last 2.5 and since then it’s been pretty constant.

I have an incredible doctor, physio, chiro and massage therapist, between them we have always been able to manage the pain but never get rid of it. So last year I started taking a nerve medication which helped but never fixed.

Yesterday I had a nerve block/cortisone injection in my neck in hope to have a solution, the MRI wasn’t convincing but the neurosurgeon agreed this was the next step.

And you know what, it was great yesterday, minimal to no pain post injection and I was so excited. They told me it could get worse before it got better and that it could take days to settle so I don’t know why I have ended up where I am today.

Around midday, I noticed my normal forearm woes and then by this afternoon it was my neck and shoulder… I was/am feeling so emotional about it, we had iras band soirée so I had to suck it up but I found myself teary after it when a friend asked how I was going.

It was & is important for me to let myself feel these emotions of frustration, disappointment and sadness cause it’s been a lot, a long road and something that anyone who hasn’t lived in chronic pain may not truly understand. And that’s ok.

What I am not going to do is let it derail my momentum, my mindset is everything to me at the moment & I can’t let this win! Not to mention, there is still hope! It’s possible for it to still have worked!

So I am going back to PT tomorrow and whilst I’ve asked Dan to shuffle my session to stay away from anything upper body, I am determined to go and get in my lower body session.

I am determined to stick to my nutrition so I stay on track for my bigger long term goals.

What I am planning to do is fill this upcoming long weekend with things that bring me joy, cooking some good food & time at home with the fam, making some stuff on my Cricut for myself and some loved ones that I’m excited about.

My hope for you is if you’re dealing with feelings of frustration, anger, desperation or any of the “negative” feelings that we are often made feel like we shouldn’t feel, that you know it’s ok, it’s normal and it’s important to feel them to enable you to work through them and move past them ❤️

If you’ve made it this far, thanks as always for reading! If you have a long weekend coming up, I hope it’s filled with lots of things that fill up your cup!!

Love, MrsJRad