There is beauty in the suffering but I tell you what, some days are just heavy.

It’s been 57 days since I sat down and wrote my goals, 56 since I started doing daily check ins with my accountability friend & in that time I have faced days of stress, worry, high emotion and grief. I made it through all of those days and didn’t fail because of the systems I have put into place.

It’s those exact systems and self talk that saw me through today and kept me on track. It was a rough mental health day, I felt heavy and sad all day for absolutely no reason. It felt hard and I said to roge all I wanted to do was curl up in bed.

But this is the thing, I didn’t.

I didn’t let myself eat poorly because of how my emotions were trying to take over. I stuck to my meal plan & I continued every hour to drink from my drink bottle and repeat to myself:

I am healthy

I am someone who loves water.

I am an inspiration to my children.

I am in control of my body.

I did this because even on the hard days I have goals I want to achieve and I know I am in full and total control of them, even when my mind or emotions are trying to take me down.

Today has reminded me that the work I have done in having the awareness of my default thoughts and then the action I’ve been taking to retrain those thoughts has been crucial for surviving the “bad” days.

Everyone can be mentally strong on a good day… it’s how we handle the hard days that can set us apart on our journeys.

If you made it this far, thanks for reading my ramblings

Much love,

MrsJRad